For BETTER or for WORSE

I am leaving it all up to tomorrow.
I will talk to him;
There won't be any confusions
No more dramas from tomorrow.

This feeling isn't beautiful.
Its traumatizing.
You shower me with happiness
but within, fill me with misery.

I don't understand what the problem is.
well' actually I do. I can't pretend to not know what I really know. Because I know it and that's the saddest and the most difficult part here.

and I love you too!