Thursday, May 17, 2012

no, nothing!

I am seriously hating every single moment right now.
I don't have a life.
I don't have friends whom I feel friends with.
I don't have a job.
I don't have money to buy new shoes.
I don't have an identity.
I don't have any place to go.
I don't have the smile I used to have! 

Thursday, May 10, 2012

first cut - deepest?

So, like really, is first love unforgettable??
Its his first love, happens...I heard people saying this and I could try to understand the situation here,.. but Hello'  life is too short to be living with the thought of first love, ain't it??
especially when your first love turned out to be a cheat,
when your first love took you for granted,
when your first love used you as an entertainment,
when your first love dumped you because she has started to like your brother,
when your first love brought this barrier between u and your best friend,
when your first love gave you a pinch of bliss and a handful of frustrations,

when your first love NEVER REALLY LOVED YOU AT ALL....

Would  you still think of your first love?? Would you still care to miss her??
Love is weird, I tell you!!

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

superhuman

At this moment,
if I had this superpower that'd make me SuperHuman..
I'd wish to be able to blow a cool chill wind on this man's face...  facing infront of me, sitting inside the same tempo, the scorching sun must be the reason behind his sweaty face. Not have I noticed until he took out a small piece of cloth *hanky* and wiped his face but the sweats, kept dropping!!
I wished I were a superhuman that time! ;(

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

baby!

A baby is home, a new puppy, a new member of our family.
We aren't 4 now. we are 5 members.
and the very morning I felt him, on my pillow, sleeping right next to me!
it seems we will share a special bond together ^_________^

Monday, May 7, 2012

I fall

With a stranger, never did I speak this much..
the feelings I had..
never did I felt a distance with you
and we even met quite a few times..

I realized that I was falling....
falling for you. falling over you..

But then I know you are noone to me..
we are never meant to be!! 

I have

I have in me

UNSAID FEELINGS!

I fail

"Do you still love her?"
I could never ask you that.. How can anyone stop loving someone that they have been in love with ?? I don't think I was ever able to or will be able to. Is that sad or Is that good?? I guess that's confusing... for me at-least. I don't know. I feel like, everytime I try gather up my guts and raise you the question, I end up getting failed. I fail.. I don't see a reason here...I can't seem to blame your smile,or the way you put your hands on your hair and style it back-and-forth or how you look into my eyes and say "I missed seeing you"...

I am left with no other option but to fall in love again.. 

I think

I am not saying I am in love..
its just that he's all I think about lately!!
and that just brings smile on my face. ^____^ 

Life has a habit of taking those you want closest and throwing them across the oceans!

His poem!

High above the ground
Up there in the hill
From where we shall see the world
and above us, would be the glittering stars.

The moon smiling bright
You and I, will sit on the rock
With your hand around my waist
and my arm around your neck
With only lights of stars
we'll sit there in the dark.

The night you've dreamt
and the moment I've imagined
with the cold breeze that surrounds
The night so calm

The touch to make us warm
We'll talk about the love
we'll hear a song of love
I'll hear your heartbeat
and make you hear mine.

We'll leave the land and fly above
We'll kiss and make love!!

                                         

I longed

I wanted to run up to you and give you a  hug...

A really, really long one. 

Why is anonymous blogging so effin difficult? :/
i am having to create a new account ...argg...

Fcuk that!


u think so too?

In every relationship,  there's always the BOY, the GIRL, the EX who's jealous and the FRIEND who secretly wants it to end! :/
For me, when I picture the person I want to end up with, I don't think about what their career is, or what they look like.
I picture the feeling iGet when iAm with them.

                                                         ~Taylor Swift <3

?

So, is it true like...hmm... 
you have more feelings for someone whom you have kissed before than this someone whom you are wanting to date??
khai.. iHaven't been able to pen down the exact state here..
:/ 
BORED TO DEATH! yea I just tweeted that!!

4th May 2012

wat really happened on 4th may?
wat did I do on this day?
I quite don't remember....

First thing' I didn't go class lol..
blame my  excessive love for the thing called *sleep*
and yes' I was whole day using internet.
boring.. I know right!!

went to P. dd's place to see her new born baby. and the baby is just the photocopy of the husband...eerrkk..which I really wasn't wanting... but kids' they are always lovely!
Had a pretty time with the kids and yes, my best friend called me up saying he's waiting right outside my place.
So, we were home, talking, fighting, pulling each other's leg, what not?
we always fight..

and while I was away for the evening walk, he'd left cake at my place. thats a bit cute but I don't like cake, he knows that... he could have got me something else' like...pizza :-D lol
yes' this is it..
bye for now

love much..


P.S~ i am still 20 (:

rain and you

Went outside
and saw the moon
and it make me
think of you.
And the rain,
it came and came
There, you were
Inside my brain!

hopeless

I can't pretend that I am okay
I can't fake it anymore.
I am hopeless, helpless
and I am afraid that i'll never get better.

Hello May!


I welcome May month with a pure heart and a hopeful hope that it will be kind to me!
iDon't hope BIG. Just let no obstacles come my way. Make my each day pass with a smile and with love that's true and heartening.


and from today, actually from yesterday 1st may, iWill post something, like anything happened till 30th may (My birthday) I want these 30 days to be very good days.
seriously speaking, I don't wanna turn old iSwear. I am having this nightmare of turning older and i really don't want that..
no wonder I just hid my birthdate in my facebook account so that noone sees plus iDon't want facebook to go "say happy birthday to ..... " iHate fake wishes!!!
If someone knows it, iWill be wished.. if no wish, iDon't care. infact iWould be happy that noone remembers my birthday and that they won't know i am getting old.
oh dyam'
time does run fast. I am already 20 arggggg..and iFeel so old! :S *D.E.S.P.A.I.R*

See you later then..
much love!

P.S~ i am still 20!

that evening!


WEDNESDAY, APRIL 25, 2012




so'
he and I, were sitting by the this place, watching people pass by, some staring at us and then taking their way, stray dogs and what not.
We both love this evening walk and iLove it more when he's there to accompany me.
We were there, sitted on that bench, enjoying the view and me telling him how beautiful the sky is. Then our conversation started..
Actually, he is my best friend, whom iConsider my other half and he says iAm his soul. How dramatic right?? but its true =D

There are gazillions of things between us that we share and that night, out of nowhere iSaid..

We both should start seeing someone. You should date her *recently there's this girl who's hitting on him* and likewise iWill too.
Wat?- Shrieked HE.
Yes! its high time we should. We can't go on like this. We are best of friends but at the end of the day, we need someone who's more than a best friend, right?

He got up from where he was sitting, stood right infront of me and asked, " Won't you feel jealous if iGo out on a date?"
A pause and a bit hesitant this time, iSaid "hmm...NOUU  why would I?"
*but inside all iWanted to say was YES Yes, ofcos iWould feel jealous*

HIM: really? But iWouldn't like it if you date that guy. I feel jealousy within me when you were talking to me about him. iDon't know who he is but iHate him.

and there was silence..
and for the ever first time, iLoved this SILENCE between us!

FRIDAY, APRIL 20, 2012



unlike the other days,
iBegan the conversation this time, still with the small hope that you'd say hi first..
iWaited.. and waited.. but no startups.. iHad to go "there?"

Him: yup, how are you?
Me: Now iAm good *trying to act cheesy*
Him: had dinner?
Me: NO..

and silence!!!! 




unlike the other days,
I began the conversation this time, still with the small hope that you'd say hi first..
I waited.. and waited.. but no startups.. I had to go "there?"

Him: yup, how are you?
Me: Now I am good *trying to act cheesy*
Him: had dinner?
Me: NO..

and silence!!!! 

iWanna!


iKnow this is a bit too cheesy..but whatever it is... iFeel the same, genuinely! ^____^

home!


WEDNESDAY, APRIL 11, 2012



iAm back to home..
dayum' right when our bus stepped onto Kathmandu, iWas with all smiles..trust me..all smiles (:

you

you happen to fall in love with the most unexpected person at the most unexpected time.

eat this!

you don't like what iWrote before??

त्येसो भए आची खाउ ! लौ जा :P 

तिम्रो नाममा

 ~~ तिम्रो नाममा मैले एउटा कविता लेखे
       कविता एस प्रकार छ

      दुइ दिन को जिन्दगीमा
      तिमि आयो खुशी छायो
      दुइ दिन को जिन्दगीमा
      एक छिन् आयो अनि फेरी हरायो

                       

P.S ~ iKnow this is such a lame writeup..but iLove it..the fact that iWrote it in nepali..lmao

06:06

This is weird. iJust couldn't come up with a title for this post.
There are just too many things running in my mind and iKnow there's no point in writing them here. Will iFeel better?? iDon't know..
Will my confusions be solved??Hell NOO.. blogspot donot help us with the counselling.. does it??

dyam' iHave gone blank :/

but yes' one thing for sure' you are on my mind!
Why is anonymous blogging so effin difficult? :/
i am having to create a new account ...argg...